Tested positive HSV2. Feel hopeless.Bladder pain

[Cloudy]

I’m 45 years old and needing support so bad. I got checked every year for all STDs and HSV always were negative. In my last appointment 3 days ago my results came back positive and I pretty much fell to the floor and I’ve been crying for three days. I thought I originally had a yeast infection pretty bad but it also felt like a bladder infection. Since getting this news, I’ve been stressing myself out big time. Today I am having a lot of pain in my bladder. My doctor said if I have an outbreak to let him know and he will put me on some thing. I haven’t had an outbreak as of this moment but I can feel the pain all in my urinary track area. So I’m assuming the outbreak might be in the urethra. I called the doctor and left a message saying I was in pain and I’m waiting to be put on some thing. I’m getting more stressed out that I’m not getting a response back because I want to get on medication right now! I’m freaking out I feel alone I told my best friend. I told another friend but I didn’t say exactly what it was but I said it was serious but not life-threatening. I’m having a severe depression and not doing good. I’ve been going back to school online to get my masters degree and my next class is coming up in a few days and I actually want to cancel my class I feel so horrible! I’m a complete wreck fearful of what is to come. I’m sitting in the bathtub as I write this because the pain was so brutal. I can’t get over this doom feeling. I also just had a breast lift a year ago and my results are awful my scars became keloids. I had another surgery three weeks ago to cut some extra skin off. So I’ve been feeling pretty depressed about that and now this …I feel like I just want to crawl in a black hole and not come out.I have off today but back to work tomorrow. I’m stressing about thinking I will be in extreme pain at work. I would really appreciate someone to talk to you right now and I need support.

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[Nancy]

I am so sorry you are you going through the emotional pain. I had a similar experience a year ago when I was diagnosed with HSV 2. The doctor had such a nonchalant attitude about my diagnosis and I was shocked. I fell into a depression and contemplated suicide and totally suppressed my feelings and ignored my diagnosis. I didn’t have any symptoms or outbreaks until I received my test results…probably because I was stressed out to the max. There’s a me two aspect to dealing with herpes. First you have to accept it and then educate yourself and find what’s right for your body. This forum is a great start to get educated and feel supported. You are not alone!!

[christieadiaz]

I am 44 and just tested positive.
I have been with the same man
For three years. I had a feeling
He was stepping out and my results
Confirmed it. Now I’m left to find my
Self again. My emotions are all
Over the place.

[Cloudy]

I’ve been trying to calm myself down. I understand the stress. 🙁 I have decided to attempt that there is nothing wrong and try to ignore that I have it. That works somewhat. At work I’m a zombie. I don’t feel like talking to anyone but I have to in my job. I wish I had a month at home to care of myself mentally. My next online graduate class has started. I was going to cancel it because of the stress … but decided to carry on. My desire has been to quit the stressful job I have now and become a therapist. I have to keep moving forward somehow.

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