October 20, 2021 at 7:45 pm #44738BrightangelParticipant
This is mostly a vent post, I feel betrayed by men and I hate them too because those jerks barely get symptoms and throw their penises around like it’s nothing without the bad affects. They rarely get tested, because ….. MEN…..
I was diagnosed about 3 weeks ago.
I was obstaining from sex for about 7-8 months and got tested two weeks before I decided to have sex with this guy I was talking to. Unprotected of course. (Biggest mistake of my life)
My tests came back negative, as it always has the in the past. (I used to be a sex worker so safety is a huge thing for me)
Anyways, a couple days later I got itching, over a period of 12 weeks my symptoms got worse, from burning,It turns out he gave me Trich, Yeast infection and HSV1 and also a severe bladder infection AND UTI. I had to go to the hospital because of the pain and sickness.
Being an ex-sex worker I already felt that I had no worth left, now I feel that I’m utterly worthless and disgusting. My best friend had it and was helping me through it but she passed away a mere 4 days before I got the official results.
I don’t ever want to date or have sex every again. I feel like no one will ever love me or want me. I don’t want kids because what if I infect my child? Who would want a kid with me anyways ?
How does everyone else feel about dating after being diagnosed? How have you gone about telling the other person?
I’m bisexual and with women it’s such direct sexual contact that I can’t have anymore, unlike men if I really wanted to a condom would be used but doesn’t work for a woman.
I lost the person that was my support, and I’ve been wondering who out there had things like this to share. I’m truly thankful for this forum.November 2, 2021 at 6:28 pm #44756daffodils252Participant
Hii, Im in the same boat as you but I was given hsv2, the feeling of disgust you have for yourself to “let” yourself be put in such a position (well that’s how I feel) I’m 30 and I did not think I’d ever be put in this position too, I’m only writing here because if someone answers your questions be sure to pass on please, I can’t imagine being intimate with someone now but when I am with someone I love sex and head and I doubt I’ll ever feel what heads like again. I understand what you’re going through
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