I recently got diagnosed with Herpes. I’ve lived in this state for a month now since I graduated college.I struggled to get a job, can’t find valid insurance. Then I get told it could’ve been in my system for years before the outbreak, though I believe that I got it recently. I guess the when doesn’t matter as much as the it’s now…It’s not the shame or the disgust in myself that I can’t stand…It’s the fact that I can’t look myself in the mirror without feeling like somehow in all this, I deserve it. I got myself into it, It’s my fault and no one elses’. I feel worthless, I’m afraid I’ll never be able to get into a healthy relationship with this in me, but it doesn’t matter because I’m also terrified of spreading it. I hate myself, I hate this place, and I hate that this happened now when I already have so much else going on. This forum has shown me that I am not alone, but given how recently I found out (yesterday) my emotions have not caught up to my logic that I’ll be alright in the end. Right now, I feel like absolute crap, and feel like no one will ever get to want to know the chick with herpes.