I was diagnosed yesterday with HSV II. I’m lost, confused, ashamed, angry… lots of different emotions. My doctor was describing to me what to look for when I have an outbreak, because I don’t believe I’ve had one, and she keeps saying “you’ll know when you do.” I hate that phrase and I’m obsessing over my recent news. I’ve been itchy before, but I don’t think it was because of an outbreak. I don’t recall ever having sores. I just need someone who I can chat with I guess.
I keep thinking back on this time about 6 years ago that I complained to my new GYN that every time I got my period I would get really itchy and irritated. He shut me down immediately saying it was just dryness. I was not satisfied with the answer but he was very dismissive so I let it go. I think about that day like “could I have known about this 6 years earlier if I had pushed a little harder?” Because itchy and irritated after my period is now my first symptom before an outbreak.
The news is really very shocking. I’m going through the same feelings as you. Everyone is quick to say how common it is but that doesn’t really help that much does it? I’m thinking I may need a therapist to help me work through this. Have you considered talking to someone like that?