Hi guys I joined this forum last year around this time but never engaged or posted anything. I told myself that I would do so after I finished the book but I am now in the first week of my spiritual journey. I don’t kno any one who has been through my journey so if you have some insight or suggestions it would be great and I really hope I can do the same. I am 34 now but my story began when I was 21 yr old virgin or so I thought.
At 21 I had never been to a OB-GYN…but all my friends were having sex except for me so I felt left out. Not that I didn’t want to, but I was waiting for that special guy. I had come close before but I never went all the way…Fast forward to my appointment…it was painful because I had never had anything inside me or so I thought…but not even a week later I get a call from the MD saying I have chlamydia and HPV… I knew it was a lie and requested to be retested. I was a virgin right? How could this be…but the retest gave me the same results… I was devastated disguisted but the MD assured me I was young and the HPV could go away…and it did 2 years later and after I had been told I have precancerous cells. I was happy and it had been a long road. But also during that time I was also diagnosed with Hepatitis B.
At this time I was 22, living with Hepatitis B and HPV I didn’t know how I gotHepatitis B. And I had even been vaccinated when I was younger. I had a drunken encounter with a “friend,” and to be honest at the time I wasn’t sure if we had sex or not. So I thought maybe I had gotten it from him because I knew he didn’t drink but he told me he didn’t have it. Again, I was devasted and I honestly felt like I couldn’t catch a break…After, I really struggled with wanting to live and closed myself up…I didn’t have much personal interaction with men; until I turned 24.
In the heat of the moment we engaged in oral sex, but I had not told him about my hep B diagnoses prior and was unsure if it could be contracted orally. I eventually told him and that pretty much ending our situation. A year later, I meet another gentleman and I told him about my Hep B diagnoses before we did anything sexual…we even got tested or so I thought,,,because months into us dating I contracted Herpes 2. I know i didn’t have it prior to dating him because I had tested for it in my blood…moreover he also got cold sores.
He denied giving it to me and I tried to deal with it on my own…but having Herpes along with Hep B (at 25/26 years old) made me feel just so unattractive, disgusting, and not anything someone would want. I honestly didn’t think things could get any worse…but 2 years later on Halloween night or really Nov 1 I was raped and left in a motel room…This happened almost 6 years ago.
I am now in a place where I can say I am happy and would like to start dating…and get married I havent done much in the past several years and I am nervous about finding/looking for love because for a long time I didn’t think I deserved it. Sorry my story is long and I tried to condense it so would understand what I have been through..not sure if anyone has struggled with the same issues but it would great to talk to someone who has because besides you guys I don’t have anyone to relate to…
Topic: I am new
Hi, I am new here and just got diagnosed with genital herpes. I am 20 years old and to be honest I am very scared. I have an autoimmune disease known as lupus and now I have herpes. I really have nobody to talk to about how I am feeling other than my boyfriend but he does not really understand so much about what is happening. I am waiting to find out if I have type 1 or 2 but I could really use some advice.
Topic: New here
Hi New here.
I’m 29 years old and was diagnosed almost 6 years ago. I am having a harder time now in life then I did when diagnosed. I am usually fine with telling partners about herpes, until recently.. I really fell for a guy and when I told him he did not know what to say but also did not run away. He told me he needed to get information on it himself but he wasn’t going to stop talking to me. I offered to talk to him and let him know everything I know and the precautions I go through to be very safe. Out of the blue he tells me he does t know where this relationship is going because he wants to get more physical but he just can’t. My heart sunk and I went into a deep spiral. I felt dirty I felt disgusting. I began questioning why me!?! I went into a depression because I began thinking that I will never find someone for me. It does t help that everyone in my life is happily married. I even gave up going to some wedding because they are triggers for me.
I have full fledge meltdowns in front of the people I love and I don’t know how much more they can handle. Then I am embarrassed and don’t want to see anyone for a long time.
I guess I never really dealt with the news 6 years ago I kind of just surprised it. But it effecting my mental health and my confidence lately and I can’t shake it.
None of this may make sense but I just needed to get my thoughts down.
Hey ladies, first timer here. Was diagnosed a week ago, and had first out break after being dormant for over 7 years (married to same man for over 7 years) was the most painful thing I’ve dealt with. Couldn’t pee, couldn’t sit, couldn’t walk. I’m finally starting to feel better but it still burn to shit when I pee even if I use water and gloves to separate my lady lips. How long did it take to heal? How long did the pain last. What do the ulcers look like through the healing process? This is all so new to me, and although I’m sad about it and I’ve always been a good girl I’m thankful that I’m not alone and my husband has been nothing but supportive. (He’s also confirmed to have it but lucky bitch hasn’t had an outbreak yet, and hopefully never. Any tips or just things you went through would be awesome. I’m so happy to find a forum to talk to people about this. I still can’t believe how common it is
Topic: New & I have questions :(
To start, back in 2019 I experienced what I believe to have been my primary outbreak. I was in more pain than I had ever been. My entire groin area was covered in ulcers, and I had no idea what was going on. By the time I figured out where I could get help, the sores were gone and the physician was not able to properly diagnosis me. She did perform a blood test as well as tested me for everything. My STD panel all came back negative, however I tested positive for HSV1. Because she was not able to swab my sores, she told me she was not sure if HSV1 was what I was experiencing at that time.
Fast forward to this past Thursday. I had such an extreme itch in my pelvic region that it was impossible to leave alone. I woke up the next morning to a pink patch of skin that was slightly swollen. Later that day, bumps began to appear and I thought maybe I had an ingrown hair. The next morning I woke up and saw that it was in fact the ulcers making their first return since 2019. Does this sound like I could positively identify myself has having genital HAV1? They’re beginning to scab now so I’m not sure if I’ll be able to get an appointment before they’re gone to be properly diagnosed, which brings me to my next question.
Have any of you used online services such as HerpAlert and Nurx? If I am properly diagnosed, is that a good way to get help and medication to prevent or help with these outbreaks? If I’ve only had one since my primary outbreak in 2019, is it worth having medication just in case?
I’ve never felt this alone or afraid in my life. I’m married, but it’s hard to talk about it out of fear that I’m going to be rejected or less loved by my partner (who knows about all of this, was present for all of this, but seems to not think that this is what I’m experiencing). I don’t know who I can talk to about this because I don’t know who to trust. Any advice or recommendations would be so appreciated as I have no idea what to do or where to go for help. Also any advice you have for managing recurrences would be great as I’m in quite a lot of pain and I don’t know what’s safe to use. 🙁
Hey Everyone! I was diagnosed several years ago and luckily I don’t have outbreaks often. My last one was about a year ago until 2 weeks ago.. I developed two rather large bumps on the outside or my inner vaginal lip. I started taking 1000mg Valtrex a day and the first one popped and was gone within a few days.. BUT…. That second one is growing! It seems to just keep growing bigger to the point that that entire side of my vagina is swollen. I’ve never had a subsequent outbreak last this long nor have one this big!! I am just hoping someone has maybe had a similar subsequent outbreak and can just give me some words of advice and peace for my anxiety!!!
Topic: Newly diagnosed
Hi I was diagnosed this week with type 1 and 2. Needles to say I’m still very upset about my diagnosis. I feel so disgusted with myself and it’s really emotionally draining. I talked to 2 doctors in hopes of some clarity. My obgyn and my primary. However they have conflicting advise for me. One says never ever share anything like towels and utensils with my kids and to be extremely careful the other one says the kids cannot contract type 2 from a toilet seat or shared utensil. I’m confused and concerned. I’m scared to even get close to my kids. I’m also going through a custody battle among other adversities in my life so ugh. Thanks for accepting me here
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